Broken. & Beautiful.

I fell..

Tue, 21 May 2013 09:38:01 -0400

For Him hard.

We both knew it..

Yesterday he told me, “I don’t want to fall in love.”

& now I’m here dealing with the pain of his loss & the sting of those words.

I will never stop loving him, I just have to learn to live without him..

If he could know just how much I love him surely he couldn’t deny his feelings.. Or could he?

I know that when we were together I felt something like love from him. I felt it, & nobody can tell me that wasn’t true.

He was scared to give himself to me.. & he never did want to fall in love.

He didn’t even give our love a chance.. I feel like he did love me underneath it all. But his desire to remain loveless won. He could never love me. Maybe that’s both of our fault.

Today I will mourn the loss of my first love.

I must get over Him.

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Tue, 14 May 2013 12:31:25 -0400

cosmic-storm: ~ Eleonora Duse

Tue, 14 May 2013 12:30:45 -0400

cosmic-storm:

~ Eleonora Duse

Pent-up

Tue, 14 May 2013 12:26:31 -0400

That is how I feel living here at my parents.

They always told me, “if anything ever happens you know you can always come back here.”

Well, you know what they did while I lived at my apartment.. They turned my room into a gym. Treadmill, weights, the whole nine.

Seriously I feel like Monica from Friends.

So after shit hit the fan with my roommate, I left & came home to my parents. Except, they have NO room for me, or my things.

Now everything I own, except my clothes & crystals & some books, live in a 5 x 5 storage unit.

I have one tiny corner table that I use for my rocks & books. & I have to share my sisters bed. She’s a 16 year old, that wakes up at 5am on the only days I can try to sleep in.. It’s becoming impossible.

Today my horoscope says, “Your thirst for travel is stronger than usual, so you may find that you are better off moving out on your own than staying pent up in an office or apartment. Even a crosstown journey is a thrill.”

I need to find my own place asap..

For now, i’m off to work my sixth day in a row… On this extremely nice day.. Inside for nine hours again.. Great.

The more you care, the more it hurts.

Tue, 14 May 2013 00:44:28 -0400

hi-aj:

Caring about someone can be the most painful experience you’ve ever felt. They stay on your mind every second, they’re all you think about, you stress yourself finding ways to make them happy because you put their feelings first. You let every little word or action affect you deeply. Giving up and letting go seems so much easier, but you’re not capable of it because you care too much. If you don’t leave now, it’s just going to hurt even more in the future.

fairymihst: follow me for more posts like this x

Sun, 12 May 2013 22:26:07 -0400

fairymihst:

follow me for more posts like this x

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Sun, 12 May 2013 22:25:56 -0400

psychedelic-trips: Very powerful photo.

Sun, 12 May 2013 22:22:05 -0400

psychedelic-trips:

Very powerful photo.

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Sun, 12 May 2013 22:18:35 -0400

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Sun, 12 May 2013 22:15:11 -0400

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The nights I dream of him..

Sun, 12 May 2013 10:22:27 -0400

They are too real.. I can feel him, as if it’s the real thing.

I can smell & taste him.

The kisses we share in my slumber are like the ones in movies..

Only in my dreams do Him & I still exist..

Should I be thankful for the empty feeling it leaves me when I wake….?

calmue: ✌

Sun, 12 May 2013 10:13:33 -0400

calmue:

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